suddenly on tuesday(i think) suddenly received her sms...she reply sms can take a week like that but this time she was busy and she was away and she told mi that her grandfather had passed away....felt sad for her.....thats nothing i can do for her...and i have no rights to say anything also....sometimes i feels that i hope that i can be the person there for her....
rather than someone...hai can i be so selfish in saying this kind of things....
sometimes this kind of feeling a is just so temporary its so unreal..... i dont wanna have this kind of feeling and unhappiness....however sometimes this kind of things and thoughts just surfaced out anytime anywhere....
then after that she didnt reply to my sms...sometime i really demand and desire for less now....dont sms back then like that lo...u ask mi dont i felt shes rude ? i should say may be shes busy or may be i may nothing to her that she dont brother to reply mi back ! always taken for granted ?
this is the way things turns out...just be with it...no one can change it !
but this week at work really feels good after that person i hate the most posted out of my office...the best thing that can ever happened for this period of time for mi at work..
i really felt so carefree and so happy....dont hes still the same but his business is none of my business...
this week at work also dont meant to do anything but suddenly got people in to trouble, this feeling really sucks...really i am a person that hate to make a friend rather than a enemy... my intention is not to hurt other people but it just turn out badly... then all the blame is on mi although i didnt meant anything ! just nice that things just turns to shit suddenly , its really unexplainable ....
didnt felt good monday and tuesday then drank after i sleep in camp...really like the feeling of tipsy-ness after the drink then after then sleep....
i really like the feeling....no worries , nothing , carefree !
tml(friday) is my off day....at evening got wy's bday dinner....if i dont have off i sure will work till very late de....
HAPPY 22th BDAY ONG ~
i took off cause i need the break for myself man : )
i need to rest and relax....need to recover myself after the work in camp
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