as we grow up , we have more new things to to deal with ..when we grow up we have more and more things to fear about..... we started to think of different things in life.and of course since we are born we start to have our dislikes...For mi, one of the thing i dislike last time is studies... still can remember my aunties ,mom and grandma tried so hard to try mi and my brother but can still remember my mother and brother nearly vomitted blood teaching mi how to divide....hahai really admit i am really quite slow at learning.... O ya o ya...i really hate to go for tuition class especially for english class...for mi i dislike to study cause really cant sit still and i really FEAR the most and felt dragged of going to tution classes....
i remember really went a few english teacher class which i feel that its really a waste of time and stuff..cause i got this mindset that english cant be improve just going for tution....i remember went to a tution class and its taught by a DR.(Phd) called Dr. James....really a bit of waste money and time man....went to the class being totally lost ....
as a child i only think of playing and really play until i forgot everything..... i remember i loved to play soccer after school in the evening everyday with my neighbour..really had fun .....really can remember i didnt study much for my psle also.....thats y results not good man ! really regret cause didnt really put in effort in my studies..
my memories of my primany sch life is really quite a problem in school...always get scolding by my teacher and really created many problems in primany 5 and 6 when my form teacher is Mrs kua.
can u believe that i was so naughty ,really do my home work well and my result isnt so good.... in one of the incident when i didnt really do my homework or misbave in class till my form teacher drag my table till the door and really threw my table out of the corrider and the table really flew a distance and all my books and stationeries will be all out the corridoor..
the ppl from other class will really "cheer" when one table cause it will really make loud bang..like its a game or soccer..
beside that i was really nearly canned for mishaving at primany five...she recommended me for the canning...but thinking she was just saying but i really thou it was real so my aunty went to see the pricinpal .....then my teacher got quite shocked knowing my aunty... it for some small matters but its really shameful to think back about this past.....really feel so bad ....i wasn't those ah bengs , but some times just too playful......
Mrs kua really help mi in my life alot......she had really helped my alot in my primany school and really helped mi alot in my life,cause i really went through alot during this few year in primany but without her really dont think i can achieved and be what i am now......
its time to move on the primany school and secondary school.. at these stage we fear different thing....some fear that other friends wont make friend with themselve ....fear that we might be outcast by others...but things will get better as we found new friend and clicks on the way that makes us feels better....sometimes we fear so dont look good dont have the best turnout...fear about exams....fear that our result isnt good and stuff....
In the secondary school i really learn the most and really met of of the best teacher i have ever meet , he is Mr Chia....he was my Chemistry teacher and my gang of friends , mi, my bro, jia xiang, stan and aloy was very close to him...he was more like a friend to us that a teacher...we can chit chat everything and at this period of time its really the time when i learn alot of things about life from him.....he will always say to us to get a life...haha in a friendly manner..cause at time we might go sometime silly which we dont realize so he will tell us man...
of course help jia n his relationship problem....really we get very close to each other and other students start to say that then really remember one in the lesson he just classiffied things infront of the whole class...really feels so pai seh man !!
now we still contacting each other and got go to his house for christmas dinner de.......love chia's kid...cheryl..really very very cute...so adorable and cute....its different from other kids..
the real hit in my life which is in secondary time , which makes mi change quite alot and learn alot is the death of my dear friend Jun Qiang..he passed away in sec four and its on our 'N' level, he really happened so quick...life is really so fragile..its like remember seeing him so well one week and the next week seeing him at the hospital at the verge of death really so sad............ cant forget the last time we see him...its the last thing u wanna see the last stage u dont wanna ur friend to be in...it really change my life totally... after that before poly then went out to the society to work ...yap...made a few friends which are still contacting now....
After that went to poly, dont know y became so hard working also man...ya...but at poly really know i am not those who are clever, i really work my way up de...through hard work de....sad man...y cant why i am cleverer abit ?? hahahaha..... yeah met some my good friends at polytechnic...my best friend in poly , mervin prakash ! really nice knowing him ! tho we didnt always meet up but really appreciate the friendship we had...: )
talking about fear again....sometimes u will fear that friend will leave us , friend will cheat ur feelings....fear of loneliness and ...cause u have been through some of the past experiences..sometimes really scare to lost friends in my life....really !
sometimes we really fear to much already....haha why fear so much ??? what will happened will happened..so take it easy ..sometime it easy to say hard to really do it......just relax... let to let go....and be patience...
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