hate that !

today woke up late then its like class is starting about 30mins time ~ so rush off then took a cab to school ! hate that feeling ! then after that i went to study with clement and the the rest of my friends , harbinder , hafiz , shaun and wilson came to study ! i should say its really a very unproductive and today i felt that sick feeling again !

i always had the feeling of doing so much but nothing is done ..seeing the rest knowing their stuff and u are still at the same spot , this feeling is really very so alone ! only u yourself know that feeling !

if im really good i will defiantly share and teach the rest man ! i dont expected my friends to teach mi every things , without mi doing anything ! but in fact there are really alot of tings to study man ! its very difficult man !

last week was like "jack" by my teacher ! i know my study method might be wrong as in i dont really understand the real concept of the topic i just memorise and whack ! i think its really sucks but u know habits are hard to change and its like in my blood already ! then after my class !

i went to ask my teacher for helpt hen he asked mi a series of question on that topic and i cant answer him !

of course i dont know then i ask him for help then in the end he like shoot mi back saying that i dont really have much time and why am i not knowing the basics ! of course he is really concerned and wants to help mi but at that point of time i really felt like shit ! im really helpless ! and really felt like a loser..

then recently got two of my test ~ one of them i failed it and another is 52 marks ! what i can say man ! i dont know what to say but im really disappointed !
seriousl hate that man its really shit and PUI PUI PUI !

its really F UP MAN !!! Haiii... all hope is gone for what u believed in and in life..

i really hate this period of time now man ! really hate it ! haii

i dont know what to say about it

its really feeling shit being at the bottom of everything and its like knowing u are dying soon from the shit ! but u dont when !

its like stepping in a quick sand and no one is helping u ! i really sometimes wanna share my feeling to someone man ! some listening ears man !

after studies saw bevan ! my ocs friend ! nice to see him ! hes in smu ! yeah
good to see him in good shape !

went to shaun's hse to stay over to study really hope that i can get something out of tonight !