just quarrel with josh, hate the feeling of this man ...then took a can of beer from the freezer...really hate this feeling man...is me or his attitude sucks ...he say i came home just show him black face...please man i never man .. ok i cant see my own face ! really pissed with ppl accused mi in doing the things i dont mean it and for what i am not....
facing many challenges in camp and really yap...life have to live it urself...so many things u dont like but have to do it...and to meet ppl that u dont like and some many things that will happened de...just feels that some ppl are just very fake and that really dont make mi feels good at all...
last week whole week really wanna set the mindset right for my guys .......try so hard got use meh ?? or do they really bo chap....so many difficulties !!! its hard to brain wash someone and its not right to try to brain wash someone cause different ppl thinks differently ....is it dont thing to change yourself more that to change others man .
dont know what to say man ...life its like that one man ...do one thing doesnt mean can get the result u wan...
human is like that de...hahaha today at lunch with yh and ray and josh ...hahaha was talking about one topic and yh was saying that something and i just commented that " human is like that one...if one dont have some thing then he will crave for that thing but if it gets too much of it then he will dont was it again more and will start to feels sian about it le ....
so this is really the human nature !
wanna blog about the past with my brother joshua......as i wanna yesterday but really too tired to blog....
yap....i am with my brother as long as him is with mi but i am in this world 5mins more than him.....had lots and lots of memories man ..good and also bad man ..... what can i say about having josh and my brother...had spent alot of good and quality time with him during childhood period....ok man ...
josh its a more smarter person and remember that last time at home while mum is teaching us maths and really i from same my mind is the same as now man ... slow slow de...remember once mum teaches us division(maths) , my mum teaching my really for very very long then i really still cant make it man then mum and brother really wanna vomit blood...then josh was really like saying my le saying why and i so slow and stuff and mum also teach till pek cek...o mine !
went to the same secondary...then really met most of my "best"est friend in secondary man..like jia , aloy , stan and more....in secondary sch its quite scary cause remember last time josh and jia will quarrel de ...then josh and jia are " hard" in their attitude then once they quarrel de..then they will really suddenly form very very good friend then another moment then will be the worst emeries...really josh's its really very hot tempered....
then after in poly then diff class ...yap..since K2 we are in the same class all the way to sec 5 ...then in poly then we are separated...then really in poly really hate josh ...remember once he get gf le then he will really forgot this brother le..really we one week dont see each other de.....he really 24/7 and i am not in his world at all....i really dont "hate" just dont like his way and attitude to the max" ...he really forget of family , friends and loved one le...i think its unfair !
really i dotn know whats he is doing at that point of time...real disappointment to have him as my brother and hated myself to have such a brother......
and remember his last GF shouted mi cause he said i dont care for josh as a brother i was really heart broken and dont know what to say ....dont know its u that dont bother about mi then in return the gf said i didnt care for josh and i am really a selfish brother and all fired back at me...and scolded and shouted at mi....then i was really felt so shit and betrayed at then point of time , (speechless ) ...
now then we are in army.....
really miss him during when we got in to army then got into different camp..sometime during the week or a period of time really misses him and its really turns damn shit when things starts to turn sour or what....
hopes = expectations = attachments = unhappiness so...
no expectations = happiness ?
btw my sis friend wanna give us a husky(dog) but my grandfather dont want so bo bian....casue he was saying about the dog will scratch the floor...but its nice to have a dog in my house...but i dont really like all shit and stuff...prefer my house esp my room to be very clean ! haha
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